If you really knew me (L version)

Since j started this game i shall continue it..

If you really knew me, you would know that i like to have fun with everyone. It can be hard sometimes but it’s really my ultimate goal. It makes me happy when i can make others laugh.

If you really knew me, you would know i’m pretty much a boy. I may look like a girly type (kinda) but it’s pretty much the opposite. I don’t like cheese. Like romantic cheese. Please keep it away from me.

If you really knew me, you would know i looooooove to read. ALOT. And my dream one day is to have a library like the one in beauty and the beast. And to have a ladder so i can swing from it like belle did (really, it’s probably the one thing that makes me girly).

If you really knew me, you would know that i’m extremely stubborn. I have strong opinions and it’s hard as hell to change them but that doesn’t mean i don’t listen to different ideas. You never know what you can learn when you open your mind.

If you really knew me, you would know that i take care of others. I really wish i didn’t have to cause that would mean they are living a happy, fulfilling life. But i find comfort in knowing i can care and provide for others. My family and friends know that i am there for them whenever, wherever.

If you really knew me, you would know that you always get a second chance. I try to find the best in others even if you annoy the hell out of me. I’m immature in a way, that i’m easy to please.

If you really knew me, you would know i’m like a rock - Hard and sometimes cold. It’s a front and it’s not at the same time. I warm up to you once i get to know you but i’m more of a realist when it comes to life. I know it’s not all bubblegum and rainbows. I’d like to think i’m blunt in a nice way. Also, you pretty much have to beat me to make me cry....(continued below)

If you really knew me, you would know that i cry whenever i watch extreme makeover home edition. It’s sad okay? They struggle to keep a shack of a house and then the team comes and build a home for these families and they are so grateful and it’s just tears of happiness. Don’t tell too many people about this. Thanks.

If you really knew me, you still wouldn’t know me. There are a select few that get very close but my wall is always up. Always.

If you really knew me, you would know i still read this blog. As long as it’s up, i’ll be reading.

Happy one year blogging j =)

- L

boys come and go.

But there will only be one lesbian lover in my life.

Happy birthday L.

:)

-j

grey's anatomy.

there are two characters that perfectly describe me and L,

and meredith & christina are them. :)

i love greys anatomy! & love you L.

- j

valentines

L: "You know how we were talking about girls who flaunt gifts from their boyfriends?"

j: "Yeah"

L: "Ya! the weekend was mobile upload crazy on faceook!"

Lol too funny L, too funny

- j

weekend of amazingness

wow. where do i begin. hmm. i guess we can start off saying, it's been a while since i've felt .. happy to be out and about and single and just doing my own thing. i'm so happy that i have the amazing friends that i do and amazing family... wow i know cheesy right? but i don't think i've been happier. :)

i've included pictures because my sister says the only way i'll be able to get her attention to reading my blog is with pictures...

this is my sister's dog, or the family dog apple :) she was staying at my house for the day so i decided to take a lot of pictures of her. personally.. i would like a fluffier dog, but apples so cute sometimes :) she's so small..and.. well a princess. she doesn't like other dogs..and likes all the attention to herself.. hmm just like me?!!!!! .. maybe not as much...

so for valentines day i didn't really do much. sat around.. read a book. one about a geisha.. and how she was the most beautiful witty and.. amazing strong woman ever. :) i hope i can be more like that. but to get there we all have our hardships right? thanks to L, she gave me the jonas brothers dvd for valentines. as i quote my sister "you're a bad boyfriend" .. so i'm sorry L that i didn't do anything special for you.. i'll make it up to you though. but i must say. this was probably one of the best valentines i've ever had. no expectations.. and well.. it came up nothing short of interesting.. events .. that took place. .. not that they were too crazy of events let me tell u.. but interesting enough. haha. maybe i'll write about them later..

what i did do.. was go to frequency. which has got to be the best rave of 2010 by far. just paul van dyke headlining it (ft. benni benassi, marco v, ferry corsten & more) was just amazing. i fell asleep with my ears ringing and dancing my way to my dreams lol im for REAL when i say it was pretty sweet. my ankle that i sprained two years ago is acting up again cause i decided to dance away my night from like 930 pm - 415 am. CRAZY. im running on 5 hours of sleep right now.. lol pretty tired. but i had lots of fun.. i came there alone but you know you're pretty into the scene when you can come there and for sure you'll have a couple groups of people that you can count on having a good night with :) yay for life.

maybe i'll tell my interesting story about boys tomorrow.. hahaha. me and sm were exchanging interesting stories of the night today.. yay for adventure!

- j

this is why she's my best.

j: do you think i should give up hope?

l: even if i told you to give up, you'd still have hope.

j: ya.. so then what?

l: how about we have hope together.

:)

happy happy.

i was bored.

- j

it's pronounced "eh-lll"

instead of being early for work, I decided to keep my promise to L.

your welcome. :) I know.. you can thank me later :D

- j

dearest L

hiatus is over. ;)

MK + ticket to mexico = 200 points.

C + MK + me + you + mexico = EPIC.

- j

the point system

dear L.

you're lucky I'm planning to go on hiatus.

188 > 38

catch me if you can. bitch. (:

- j

L's contribution

Happily ever after

So j asked me to contribute to her blog. Now i’m definitely not one to be very vocal about my feelings so i had no idea what to write. But since this blog seems to be mostly talking about love and relationships i guess i shall stick with this topic.
As j has mentioned, i attended a wedding last month. Actually i was a bridesmaid so i got to be behind the scenes, which means i got to experience all the work and drama that goes into the perfect day. I’ve attended many weddings before and although this is the first where i’m a bridesmaid, i have yet to experience one where so many things went wrong before. This couple had so much to deal with, from family drama to the bakery making the wrong cake! I tried my best to help them in any way i can cause they are the last two people in the world to have their day ruined. At the end of it all, their wedding day was nothing short of perfect. And it was then i realized something.

As much as the people around them scrambled to right all the wrongs, it really didn’t matter. I’ve seen this couple go through so much in the years they’ve been together and all they really wanted was to be married...to show all their friends and family how strong their love was for each other....how committed they were to each other...to show that no matter what the world has thrown at them, they’ve survived through it all. Cause there would be no point for them to exist without the other. I have never felt so happy for a couple to be married and they’ve taught me what true love really is. Their day was perfect, not because the cake was right, the weather was perfect, or the hall looked perfect. None of those really mattered...it was perfect cause they were so happy to begin the rest of their lives with each other.

8 months ago, my 4 year relationship ended. We didn’t end on bad terms and i have tons of respect for him. He knows that at the end of the day i am here for him. A couple months ago i would consider getting back together but after this wedding i know i can’t. I have finally seen what true love really looks and feels like. I don’t think i deserve the best out there...i know i’m not the best catch myself. But the love i shared with my ex was nothing close to what this couple has. The worst part is that i know we could never have that in the future either. And i think everyone deserves to experience that. But i’m in no rush...my time will come. And so the journey begins again...except this time i know what my happily ever after looks like.

- L