Unexpected call

So during my vacation, me and J were going through mind games and I told her I would have to ignore this girl the whole trip to
Catch her undying attention. Well no matter how tempted I was, I continued to ignore her
Each and everone question. Well guys guess what, it worked.

We texted when I got off the plane and suddenly my phone vibrates more then twice, I look down and its her.
We talk giggle, talk about my trip then she pitches the question, why did u ignore me everytime I asked when u were comming back. The
First thing that popped in my mind was to make my arrival more suspensful. She then pitched it again, did u want me to think about it the whole time?
Hhaaha obviously, which is why I know it bothers her now.

J, we both got prospects

J2

True Friends

I would like to start this post with thanks J, you were the one person I could always rely on before I got
To toronto, while I was in toronto, and after I came back to visit. I hope those moments we had will not be
The end, but just another giggle we can have for the future.

Typically I write about guys tactics on girls, but today I'm going to talk about friendship. After leaving edmonton
A year ago I still kept in touch with my close friends. When they came to visit, things seemed a bit different but still
Good. This time when I came back, things were very different. I guess I'm just not use to their new personalities, but
If we were meant to be friends, no matter what we always will be.

I'm leaving now...

J2

back to reality.

3 days till school begins again.

the weekend brought me the getaway I needed. (: thanks J2, you coming back was a nice change in scenery for me.

On the drive back from Banff, J2 and I were talking about how it was now time to leave the little fantasy land behind, and enter back into reality. kinda heartbreaking, I know. I'm gonna miss you when you leave homie. It was pretty amazing to smell the forest air and take a dip in the hot springs (and how we sang our hearts out while we commuted :D). I think it was a good begining to an amazing year. new friends & new memories. (and a new prospect? WHAAT??!! noooo! liess.)

I'm super tired right now so I'll bloggy more later. (: nighty

- j

:)

Ruuuuuunk.

Memory lane

Coming back to Edmonton brought back a lot of old memories. Driving around edmonton
Then to calgary and now banff, definately brought back old memories of a certain girl
I shared everlasting memories with. Just walking around Banff made me wonder what could
Have been, but from what I know now, I'm glad I moved on. So today J was on my phone
Texting back this girl, I must admit it was pretty entertaining. Even though it was a bit crude,
She really entertained me. Even though I just met L, it would be cool if she came out to camping with us
Banff.

Were camping in Banff, with some friends, a good relaxation till I get back to toronto and
Have to drink again.

J2

last night.

Last night I slept in a room full of guys.

What did I wake up to? Morning wood and farts. Lovely.

I barely slept, J2 didn't sleep either.. Going from my kingsdown mattress to. Hardwood floor in a sleeping bag is pretty drastic.

Hmmm but it wasn't too bad of a night. ;)


- j

the weekend!

Last night was the first of what will be an amazing weekend.

J2 ... If you have a bruise on your head ... It wasn't me ... :)

And thanks to L for putting up with my retarded drunkedness ... Muchly appreciated

Lol glad I wasn't as out of it as my fellow blogger though... Lol

- j

abc and cba

"Now you see a girl who talks to everyone and anyone, as a guy You have to consider if you make the first move, your going to be like everyone else, showing interest by even approaching. So what you
Do is completely ignore her, and talk to her friend (hopefully a girl) and show interest there. When the attention whore dosent get all The attention she wants, she will turn to you." (See post a b c or c b a)

Hmm good idea, but J2 what if the girl takes the guy ignoring her as him not being interested? And her friend takes it as the guy is interested in her?

Mind games equals mixed signals which can lead to ultimate failure..

Some people aren't cut out for mind games, and get confused. Like me!

- j

A B C or C B A

So I couldn't think of a title for this blog. But my title kind of relates to what I will be talking about.
In reply to J's post about who should make the first move, my perception is that
It really all depends on the person your targetting. If your a girl and you see a shy but cute guy who looks
Sophisticated, do you want to pass up this opportunity. Because chances are he's not going to come to you. But
Say he's a guy who's like the typical charming guy, who talks to every girl then yea I would wait for him to come
To me. So there really isn't a who should do what. If your really traditional then that's your choice
And you can wait for the guy to come to you J, but your def not shy.

Now what guys should do to approach women. Say you see a girl across the room, having the on and off conversation with
The person next to her, but she continually glances around. That's your cue to see if you can sweep her off her feet. I'm not
Saying you have to be the perfect charming dude, but see if you can interest her with some humour and serious listening. Girls
Actually feel more attracted when your genuine in listening to them. Now you see a girl who talks to everyone and anyone, as a guy
You have to consider if you make the first move, your going to be like everyone else, showing interest by even approaching. So what you
Do is completely ignore her, and talk to her friend (hopefully a girl) and show interest there. When the attention whore dosent get all
The attention she wants, she will turn to you.

That's my reply to J's post on first approaches. My next post will be talking more about mind games and why girls need to know when to surrender.

J2

la vie en, rose?

persistence is key.

depending on what you want that is.

persistence in relationships is a no no. perseverance is key in relationships, but going back to someone that doesn't want you anymore, well I don't think that works. Or should I say, I know for a fact that doesn't work. giving them time in between works, but if you keep on pushing a brick wall without letting it crack first, than you're setting yourself up for failure.

this post is not on relationships though. its about life goals.

persistence is key when you want something sooooo bad. in five years, I want to be finished my degree, have an extensive list of work experience and I want to have applied for my masters degree.

however, things seem to keep on blocking the road to success. I've been lucky enough to be given chance upon chance to prove myself, although it seems with one rise, there is always a fall.

I feel like I'm trying to climb a mountain that is not at all steep. there are little hills on this mountain that I keep on going up and down as quickly as I see them, and it just feels like this flat surface. So flat that I'm pretty sure I'm not rising at all. the top of the mountain doesn't seem to be coming anytime soon. It's a huge uphill battle that seems like it's taking forever to reach.

I guess that's why there's being persistent. I can only hope that my attempts to persist and fight for my goals will work, and that I will be able to focus on the prize and prove to myself that I can do it. because.. I know I can. and, I know I'm fighting with good intentions.

*here's to hopes and dreams and accomplishing more in life than you though you could do. and here's to hoping that happy endings do come true.

(on a side note, I just made a wish on 11:11am (the time on the blog is diff from my time..wierdd..) for an email back from my faculty advisor, and then I got a msg on my bb that I received an email from her. unfortunately it wasn't THE email I was waiting for..but still trippy lol )

- j

L.

sooooo glad L is back.

seriously. without her, i am a wine bottle without any wine to age. i was running out of humour and ideas to talk about.

so um on my check list to talk about.. happily ever afters.

Once i was talking to this boy about happily ever afters. I think i brought up this topic because i was busy watching and rewatching mama mia.
I said, I wish happily ever after would happen more often and he said "it does. you just don't know about all of the happily ever afters that happen around you everyday."

me and L had this long discussion about the wedding she just attended and how the bride and groom are perfect for each other.

a story every girl wants to experience.

so, i'm going to ask L to contribute to this blog. keep an eye out for her contribution :)

tmr the queen of all sap J2 is coming back. maybe he'll have some interesting stories to share with me.

also..monday went down spectacularly. couldn't ask for it to go down any other way. what did i come out of it with? never give up on yourself.

night kids.

- j

a little fresh air.

Hiiiii.

L is back today, J2 is back tmr & frozen blueberries with yogurt is the shit. :)

I don't like blogging through bb so the next few days are gonna be a little dead.

Don't be too sad!

- j

today

Today is Monday. Wish me luck!

- j

first the worst.

"Girl, if you're wondering if I want you to, I want you to. So make a move, cause I ain't got all night." -Weezer's if you're wondering if I want you to, I want you to.

Have you heard Weezer's new song? When I first heard it I was like..yeahh.. it's alllrighttt I guess.. and then.. and THEN. While I was working, it started playing in my head. I started to bop my head along... then... I started to get the urge to hear it again! and again! andd aggaaiin!.. unfortunately there isn't a video on YouTube yet..but listen to Sonic cause it is definitely on heavy rotation!..

Enough about that though, the reason why I mentioned that amazing song, is because.. while I was driving around singing my heart out, I realised that he mentions how the girl is supposed to make the move and not him. WWWWWHHHHATTTT??? youu?? the superawesomesmartnerdyandcute rockstar wants the GIIRLLL to make the move? BUT RIVERS WHY?! why must you be so unconventional and make the girl make the move?

And cue the swirling traditional and non traditional perceptions on who should make the first move. boy? girl? boy? girl? dog?..?

I'm a traditional kinda girl. Or so I'd like to think. L and L will tell you that I am a go for it cause what's there to lose kinda girl. Just like the little mermaid....BUT BACK to the topic on hand. I want the guy to make the first move however contrary to what I say, my last relationship I definitely took initiative to dial my number in his phone.. aannd it was me who went in for the first kiss. (but obv. that turn out for the worst.. perhaps I was intimidating? :S)

I had a talk with one of my friends, S one night. He's the type of.. 'play boy' sort. Meaning, his cell is full of real and fake names of girls that he should and shouldn't be talking to. We came to the topic of this one girl that one of our friend is dating. We concluded that S was turned off by that girl because she was very forward. He said that being THAT forward with yourself comes off as easy, and not a challenge. Sooo.. guys want a challenge? or do they not mind a girl who is willing to be confident and say hi? That is, unless you know that the girl has a tendency to like every guy she meets.. then I guess you can pass on her.

So now I open discussion to the many ILBIA boys and girls! (like the acronym? yeah.. im pretty good lol) Would you like to discuss this topic? The comment section is Anonymous you know.. :)

Oh and J2 this is to prompt you to write a post on this topic too (:

- j

(image via google; girl kissing boy)

bisoux bisoux.

So after watching the movie, Hitch for the first time (yes very long overdue...) I realized, first kisses can make you, or break you.

A kiss is a question in the form of an action.
The initiator/asker starts the kiss at 90 percent and.. The answer is 10 percent away.
The responder either pulls in that last 10 percent, or doesn't respond at all.
The impression of the kiss is the first 90 percent. The emotion, passion, tenderness... This matters the most.

I can only recall one kiss that I've had that has made the biggest impression on me. I felt a spark, excitement, and the possibility of falling in love with that kiss. The boy was the initiator, and after a very long pause, I responded. But... That's another story (:

On the other hand, the last first kiss I had, did not do anything for the initiator. :( which sucks cause I kinda had high hopes... maybe it was bad though cause his intentions were to see how far he could get.. (Yeah definitely did not get far..)

Oh and I've also gotten the "so do I get a kiss or what?" ... Yeah that was a peck. Not smooth at..all. But maybe he was going for the straight out blunt move... Hmm.

So guys and not so traditional girls, when initiating the first kiss, remember! This is where your first and (could be last) impression lies. Plan it out strategically ... Or leave it up to fate..and don't plan at all :)

kiss kiss (:

- j

(photo via allposters.com -http://imagecache2.allposters.com/images/pic/14573-POD/1099832~Couple-Kissing-Good-bye-in-Train-Station-Posters.jpg)

some people just stay the same.

there once was a boy.

actually, there still is a boy. but because that boy is a fool, he has passed on in my books.

You'd think that if you were friends with someone for so long, they'd fight for your friendship no matter what. Even if that means defending you no matter what the circumstances are. No one deserves to put their trust in someone in order for it to all be taken away. But then again, some people are not smart enough to realize the good things that are/were in their lives. It's a shame that some people have to break your trust again and again for you to finally realise that they aren't worth it.

Just know. When mishaps like this happen, know that you are worth someones time. you have friends that love you. and you are better than dwelling on that d*bags mistakes.

thank god I've been able to weed most of those people out of my life.

- j

a little salvation.

One of my goals in life.. is to:
To find that quiet place I can go to when I need to be alone. Where no one can find me. Somewhere with trees, vast amounts of water, and a comfy chair with pillows. That would be salvation.

There is way too much noise in the city.

You know what is really satisfying?

chopping and dicing vegetables and sautéing them. It's something about chopping veggies that make everything in life a little bit more calm and quiet. Maybe that's why I enjoy making chili... or just cooking in general.
(Wow my brain is like fried beans this morning got zero sleep and had to listen to J2 glorify his ability to lure women into his sea of mind games.)

Looking forward to getting away next weekend.

- j

(image via google; forest lake)

Emotions always get the better of Us

Every girl and guy that I have talked to always seem very rational when talking, but when i ask serious questions they tell me the most irrational responses. I asked a friend have you ever hit a girl? He asks what you mean and I already know he has at this point. But when i ask why he saids I was drunk and she got me really mad. Not Cool dude, never ever hit a girl. I must admit I have slightly hit a girl, but either way its still hitting even if its a light punch on the shoulder.

So today, my drunk friend saw his ex gf on the phone the whole day and snatched it and scared her. He even chased her down the stairs in his apartment to get her and talk to her, but because of his emotions he scared her more. Is it wrong for a guy to still try even though they've broken up? I've been through break up's and tried. But is it okay to snatch a phone away because you want her attention? My opinion is No, what are yours? Think about it and think about it drunk, probly 2 different answers.

Thats my post cause I was bored and it just happened.

J2

Playing Back the right Way at the Right Time

So I had a blog written about Girls playing mind games and how guys can over come that, but unfortunately it got erased when my BB turned off. So now I'm just gonna tell you what happened when put into action. I actually was just on the phone with my coolest friend J and we talked, actually I talked she listened and got jealous cause I got more to talk about then her today.

So Girl A, shes msgs me after i msg her, normal and we have a random conversation. She then tells me that were not seeing each other for the next yr. So this signals she wants me to make an effort to talk to her more cause she wants MY ATTENTION. Being the guy I am, I tell her no, were never talking again, playing back... Guys only do this if you know the girl well. This girl is clingy as hell so I know no matter what I say she won't give up. End of conversation. few hours later she msgs back and asks to hang out. My hard to play act got her wanting me more. Now all i gotta do is give in a bit and pull away more. She's hooked, and to reinsure she even calls me to come meet up.

Girl B, we flirt back and forth and shes good at mind games. I haven't talked to her in a few days because shes been outta town, and at the same time I don't want to appear like I want her attention. Thats desperation if I do. So today she msgs me when she gets off the plane and tells me random things. Then she asks do I miss her, normally a amateur would be like yes, and intermediate, somehwhat/maybe, and expert would play back saying depends on what missing means, but me I change my game because I already know from the past she's interested. I say Of Course, because I know you miss me too. She saids some denial things, but at the end of our conversation she admits she did and we should meet up. I'm 2 for 2 tonight

Girl C, haha this is the funniest girl. I seen her maybe 2 times including tonight. Everytime I see her I make fun of her, because how else you going to establish your appearance in a girl. Don't go overboard with insults because it will ruin your reputation. Base it on their personality and how easy going they are. I barely talk to this girl but while im out, I get a msg from a number I don't know... surprise its her. She saids some things, then she plays hard to get when I ask if she is gonna come out tomorrow. Already I know she wants to play mind games. So I act interested to give in a bit by saying, oh I only said this because I noticed you... Then she would say something back and I would pull away by saying "Actually, I'm going to be too busy to actually talk to you" from there I could go 2 ways... Continue the conversation by showing more interest and setting up another date, or by being cold and just stop talking. But because I know how this girl is... I get information from people, I stop talking to her.

The point is not to brag, but give you an example on 3 different situations. There's never one generic move to make on all girls, if not there wouldn't be books or classes on picking up girls. Guys, never give in to a girls mind games or they will destroy you, but never ignore because they will forget. Thats why you gotta give the right amount of push and pull at the right time. Timing is key. I only posted this cause some dude who read this post said to post more

J2

send it on.

"Just smile, and the world, will smile along with you."

I am a 12 yr old girl, trapped in a 21 yr old body. & I'm posting this...

Just because I can. (:

- j

that great white light.

I work with seniors everyday and I can't imagine how it would feel if one day one of my clients died. I would probably get a call from the office informing me of my clients passing, but what would happen if they died while I was there? I would probably pass out in hysterics. Which is, not a very good thing.

I've always been really, not so much wierded out but.. passive with the idea of death. When my grandma died, I was sad. However, I wasn't really close to her so I didn't have as much of a sadness as let's say any of her children. I remember, during my first year rotation, one of the ladies on my wing died while I was on shift. It was weird to me because one minute I was walking past her room and she was breathing, and the next her family was gathered in her room crying. I remember asking my instructor how we were supposed to act towards the family. She told us to give the family our condolences.

I'm not really good with saying sorry, because sometimes I'm not sure if I'm supposed to say sorry. It feels awkward to me. I'm sorry for your loss. Yes, but am I actually sorry? I feel bad, yes. But saying sorry sometimes feels, offensive. I just don't know.. this is so confusing. If I could, I would just give everyone a hug. I feel so awkward not knowing what to say.

I was talking with a friend of mine one day and she told me she hated when people gave her some sort of sympathy. Her mother was diagnosed with an illness, luckily it wasn't terminal. She said that she hated when they said "sorry" or "everything should be alright" because, well they didn't know what she was going through and she really didn't want to hear those words, especially from a stranger.

I guess my point is, I just feel awkward because I don't know how to act with situations such as sickness and death. It's ironic because I'm studying to be a nurse. I try to be as real as I can be, and I guess 'faking' sympathy is not my forte. Don't get me wrong, I AM sympathetic, it's just getting that feeling out is very hard.

Personally I like to give a hug, and keep my thoughts to myself, because no one wants to say the wrong thing.

on a side note ...don't you ever wonder what the person is thinking right before they pass? like, say they're walking see an ice cream bar and is thinking "oh damn i could totally go for a chocolate..." or if they're laying in bed, thinking "wow I wish someone could hear me right now, and please forgive me for..."

Sometimes life ends a little too suddenly.

anyways. happy days.

- j

(photo via google; white light)

let it go, or keep holding on.

"A word's just a word, till you mean what you say; and love is love, till you give it away..."
- send it on; disney friends for change (don't ask, my sister who is four years my elder got me hooked)

A lot of things are boggling my mind these days and I can't help that one of them is the 'ex'. I wrote a whole blurb just now on it, but then I thought the better part of it and decided to keep that to myself. You could say that I'm over it for the most part, but anyone is lying if they tell you that they don't care at least a little bit...
There's this song by airborne toxic event called sometime around midnight.

If you listen to the words carefully, it's about a guy that sees his ex at the bar for the first time since the breakup. Cue new and improved ex girlfriend in a smokin dress. Cue jealousy. And then cue all emotion that he's ever felt for her including flashbacks of lovemaking. Then cue a hot and bothered emotionally unstable ex boyfriend oblivious of his surroundings. And now everyone is watching him as he tries to find that girl that he realized he oh-so-stupidly let go. "You just have to see her". Ahh yes. That one song.. is a song that I would say most ex's hope that the other half experiences at least once about them. Personally, I just love the passion behind the lyrics. Its sort of a revenge for making the worst mistake of your life kinda song... Muah haa haa.. Um I mean.. Passion.. Yes.. the passion.
Here's to having fun and letting a little serendipity find its way into my life. That word, serendipity. Reminds me this one guy who was super awkward and when we talked on the phone, he said he was super nervous to talk to me... cute. Wonder what happened to him...

- j

something close to my heart.

I am a girl trying find her way, but at the end of the day, helping people is what I strive to do.

"An oncology ward is a battlefield, and there are definite hierarchies of command. The patients, they're the one doing the tour of duty. The doctors breeze in and out like conquering heroes, but they need to read your child's chart to remember where they've left off from the previous visit. It is the nurses who are the seasoned sergents--the ones who are there when your baby is shaking with such a high fever she needs to be bathed in ice, the ones who can teach you how to flush a central venous catheter, or suggest which patient floor kitchens might still have Popsicles left to be stolen, or tell you which dry cleaners know how to remove the stains of blood and chemotherapies from clothing. The nurses know the name of your daughter's stuffed walrus and show her how to make tissue paper flowers to twine around her IV stand. The doctors may be mappig out the war games, but it is the nuses who make the conlict barable."

-pg 229-230 My sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult.

- j

call it off.

I love love love love this song.

whenever I'm driving.. I hope that this song will start playing. I wasn't able to find the album version of this song, but this live version of Call It Off by Tegan and Sara on Letterman is even better. listen to the lyrics. soo. good. SOO. GOOD. You can find this song on their 2008 album the Con. I'm just in love with this song. Probably because the lyrics are soo.. je ne c'est quoi. & I'm talking to you J2, this song sounds like it would be straight out of your mind. mmm yea. lol they sound amazing live. (umm video via youtube-dolopghani ..yaa that's me trying to cite things. :P)

*amaaaaazing.

- j

b is for balloons.

Wow... Way to start off my morning with a nice cup of emosauce there J2. im kidding.

Now while girls spend most of their life planning their wedding, guys spend a lot of time planning their proposal.

(Hence our play by play view of J2s proposal...) But before the guy makes his..ultimate plan to propose.. How many girls do u think he asks for ideas from?!
I'm gonna be honest, I just wanted to put my idea down on here.. Just cause well since we're already on the topic :)

Have you ever watched the "Make her say" video by Kid Cudi? Well let me tell you.. After watching that video.. I sorta fell in love. The intro scene with the balloons? Brills. So fairytailish in a tasteful way. Now what does this have to do with proposing you say?

Imagine this. you walk into this open space filled with colorful balloons (cool colors only... hot colors would just throw the atmosphere off..) The sun is setting.. There is a small breeze. The helium filled balloons are bouncing up and down while each are individally tied down to the groud by a ribbon. You make your way to the middle of the balloon filled space, and then you see an opening with one balloon that is hovering all alone. It's hovering because the weight of the balloon has been balanced with the weight of an envelope so that the balloon isn't flying away... But it isn't sinking either. You walk up to the balloon.. untie the envelope and open it. There is a note. you read it. It says those words.
Next thing you know he's behind you on one knee.. Asking you...with a ring in hand...

Wow back to reality. (: that's my maybeoneday. Wow. I am good. *slowclap*

P.S if any of you plan to put this idea into action, let me know how it goes (:

- j

Once in a Lifetime

So I haven't slept all night, and since I'm waiting for my friends to go breakfast I thought I might as well take you through my thoughts while driving.
After going to a friends wedding a few weeks ago, I always thought about how I would propose to the women who completes me. If you haven't figured out yet this
Is J2, not J, since she's not a lesbian I hope. But back to my thoughts. I hear about all these ways friends and acquaintances have proposed such as:

Putting a ring inside a kinder surprise, and asking when she opens it
Putting it inside a rose before it blooms and then going there on the day of to see it bloom and ask
Just being boring and asking... If I was the girl I would tell him to find a boring girl to propose to then, put more effort idiot
Taking a girl to a romantic spot and asking at the right moment
Doing a magic trick and setting up the atmosphere then asking
Putting it into a tray and then having it come as the first entree... That guy watches too many chinese series

Some of these are good, but its not what I think would give a girl an unforgettable moment. I was thinking the whole ride how would I propose. I hate to think of my ex girlfriend,
But the way I was planning to do it with her was to make a heart out of an iron rode that would have mini candle holders. There would be a certain number of candle holders
Because each candle would represent a month we shared together. On each candle I would engrave a phrase of how I felt that month. Yes I did write it down because I am that sappy. So if the month
Great where we never argued, it would say something like "your the reason I smile everyday", if I was away for majority of the month it would say "being beside you is like being at home". You get
Point. So I would set up the iron heart with candles in a nice scenic spot, which for us was in emily murphy park cause it looks up to downtown. So after taking her there and having everything set
Up, I would compose my own vows, something similar to a walk to remember when she talks about love. Then after I said my part I would ask if she felt the same way. If she did then she's basically
Saying yes. If she saids I'm not sure then you don't even got to propose you got your answer there and you don't look like an idiot.

I don't know why I'm blogging about this just guess I'm listening to some emo music while waiting for my friends.

J2

I am a huge advocate of plaid shirts.

If I could wear plaid all day everyday.. I would.

I went shopping today with my buddie R. During this shopping trip I realized, I only have two plaid shirts. I definately need to go buy more. (that means more shopping when you get back L! :D ) very random, I know. Photos from left to right: a olsen, jonas bros & a olsen. (photos via google images)

mMMm nick jonas..

*boys in plaid are especially yum.

- j

sometimes love comes around..

And sometimes kisses come around too. (:

My best friend L and I have been there for each other since eighth grade. She likes to tell everyone that the only reason we became friends was cause I had to use her lock cause someone stole the lock on my locker.. Twice. (I guess I can't disagree..)

Well L and I have both been in serious relationships since tenth? grade. (Myself in a couple more due to my inability to keep one going for a long time *sigh*) anyways.. Following an approx four year relationship on her part, and a six month (sad isn't it?) relationship on my part, we found ourselves both single for the first time in... Wow a loooooong time.

Two single girls in the city? With a whole summer ahead of us? Oh the enless possibilities. Mua ha ha ha.

Now, we were laying in my bed one night (cause that's what you do when your mattress costs 1600 and feels like clouds) and I came up with the idea that by december we should have a goal of guys to kiss.

Why not slut it out? Well not really.. A kiss is just a kiss... Sleeping with someone on the other hand.. Well that's another story :P
Originally the goal was 3 and 3 (may-dec? Pretty small number to achieve right?)
Then L said "uh no. Realistically I will get 1 and you will get 3"
Then I said "uh no. Realistically, I will give you a goal of 3 and myself of one cause... I can totally keep it in my pants...I hope and cause that one.. Will be THE guy." (Ohh so naïve)

So there we were with our plan 3 for L, and 1 for myself.
It is now august... The score?
well. let's just say L has a ways to go.. and I've maxed out the visa.

Luckily there's still lots of time and screw the score... I will find that one perfect? No... Amazing kiss. Or guy I mean. :D

Three more months L. Three more months.. (; kiss someone at that wedding or don't come home at all! Got it? Good.

*yaaa I know my posts are long.. But I'm bored as f&ck. (:

- j

To Do or Not to Do

So this blog is a switch between J and J2. I'm obviously J2 cause im Just 2 Cool. But yea i wanted to talk about what guys always think but never think before they do. So I moved to this far off place meeting new girls and everything was good until I was put to the test. My friend told me to go hook up with this girl who thought I was the bomb. haha yea the bomb. She def had to much to drink cause I look at myself in the mirror everyday and I don't blow up. So i decided to and my contemplation came. Should I go all the way or let the drunk pleasure herself. My friend msgs me as I get home and tells me to go all the way if I can. Well obviously since i'm the bomb I'm not going to back down. That night we did what we could since she skunked my car with her puke and my jacket. For anyone wondering if i was desperate enough to kiss her puke I didn't I pushed her away everytime. So after I got to where I did with her, she starts cuddling and at the moment I realized I should've thought it out. Now i'm being bother literally every 10-20 mins with a txt msg wondering where I am, who I'm with and if I want to sleep over AGAIN.

So just for you guys out there, people will tell you if you do it make sure you do it safe. I'm going to tell you, if you do it make sure she dosen't have your phone number, because she could be those clingy girls who don't comprehend the word NO.

Thats my part, I'll keep everyone updated with the girl I finally decide to settle down, and yes she will be the defuser cause I am the "BOMB"

J2

never settle.

Never settle because it will only get you so far.

But but but WHAT if I WANT to settle?
You knooooww... Drop out of school, become a stay at home mom, marry a guy that isn't great but is good enough.

Don't you hate it when you're just waiting for.."More" to come?
See here, I'm picky. (Or so I'd like to think) anndd well there's... A prospect. Prospect N, is a pretty sweet guy. Great personality (although his awkwardness makes me look a wee bit normal) anndd we have the same taste in music!
The problem is, I am a good for nothing selfish and shallow person who dates people according to the full package.
Translation? His appearance is a little lacking. (Mind you I said a little!)

God. I said it. Kill me. Whatever. Oh come on don't say you wouldn't settle either!
I would if it was someone else? Calling Edward Cullen? Ha ha ha?

Oh prince charming... Where art thou?

and by prince charming, I guess I meant Prince Eric... siigh

I guess this post was to convince myself not to lead the poor fellow on right? (This is where you take my advice and don't do the same thing if you were in my situation *cough* J2 *cough*)

there is a whole sea of men waiting to be discovered.
Nono. I am waiting to be discovered...by them :)

Hmm.. Well off to work!
My 70 year old female client is waiting to watch ufc... Ya .. Scary isn't it?

- j

prologue.

Hiiiiiiiii.
Since I'm not good with welcoming speeches, I will start off with a little story.

Summer of grade ten. I started to take interest in this boy, H.
H was a pretty sweet guy. We hung out a couple of times, then one day in his basement he asked me if I wanted to be his girlfriend. What did I do? I laughed for a good five minutes.
I eventually got around to saying yes to poor H.
By then you would have expected him to be aware of my inability to keep a straight face... right?
A couple of days following that night in the basement, H and I shared our first kiss. Now mind you, I was a naïve little girl yet to experience anything beyond a peck. Well, let's just say that first kissing experience was interrupted by the words, ha ha ha.
Poor guy, thought he was getting his groove on annd me being the awkward person I am, had to laugh in his face because:

a) I never thought I would ever experience my first lip locking action at that moment; and
b) I didn't know how to even kiss!

Oh the laughing didn't stop for a while.
The rest of the relationship ended with him telling me he loved me, and me breaking up with him two days later.
Oh, young love. The best two week relationship I ever had... And by best I mean... I have never laughed so much at someone during two of the worst possible times, ever.

Moral of the story is, five? years later, H is one of my closest friends.

I've grown into my awkward laughing phases, but I would assume that's one of the reasons why my friends and family love me.
I laugh in every situation. It's bad sometimes, but I can't really help that I'm socially awkward.

Here's to an interesting and tumbleweedless blog. Enjoy!

- j