i always have a love interest. always.. even if it's that one guy i know isn't the best idea but i still follow because it's the most affection i will received.. so i follow.
i dont know how i'm feeling right now.. i think i am pmsing to be honest. am i bored? really? is that why i am actually feeling that i have so much time on my hands..and that i don't feel like being interested in anyone..and the one person i actually decided to put the least amount of effort into..totally ..well it totally fell through..yes. let's talk about that.
have you ever met someone that you totally said no to.. and thought to yourself it would never work but when in reality you had a small connection with but you would never accept it? i never accepted it..not once. is he someone i would roll over and say oh fml what did i do? um.. i dont know. but i'm thinking about him.. and that's what gets me. is that i am actually thinking. and im getting mad about the fact that he didn't give me what i wanted. which was..some time. i wanted some time with him to confirm my feelings. but i never got that time. so what you're busy.. and ya. i had different motivations besides friendship.. but i really wanted to feel something with you okay? .. and yes i told you i had zero feelings for you..but unfortunately sometimes we realize too late that hey..maybe this person actually is a good idea.
so that's why i've been bitching at you and blowing up in your face. because i want time. and i've already told you that i might have feelings for you and you ignored me. lol.. i think i'm mostly upset because isn't this what you've wanted? and now that i am finally reciprocating..you're the one running away?...
i guess now i know how it feels. because i've done what you did in the past. full circle hey? i wish you would talk to me.. hmm. okay. now i will drop this. cause it is a waste of my time.
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