my mind's racing from chasing pirates

norah jones- chasing pirates <3

who i am

teeheehee. nick jonas

nick jonas and the administration - who i am

WHO I AM : always and will be a 14 yr o girl inside :)

- j

not all is bad..

norah jones - shoot the moon

music makes me happy :)

wtf do u want?

why do you say things, that you think you mean.. and yet after saying them you turn around and do the opposite?

you guys, you guys just say so many things.. do you say it to sound sweet? or do you really feel it? like.. after all is said and done, after hours of talking, fighting, telling lies?.. truth?...after all is said and done.. what do you you want? like what the hell do you want from me?

if you want to be alone. be alone. stay away. there's no in between. there's no more grey.

if you want to JUST be friends, act that way. be my friend. don't go telling me you want to hug me. it's not fair.

if you want to be with me. be with me. hug me to sleep and wake up smiling beside me.

but don't string me along and expect me to follow. because you're the fool. not me.

i am saying this because i see this everywhere. EVERYWHERE. like.. here there.. everywhere.

get your shit together guys. seriously.

-j

i like emo music.

don't for get - demi lovato

- j

my friends make me smile.

"Even if c doesn't love you...i want you to know that God loves you and therefore i love you too :) have a good day"
-jdub


:) made me smile this morning.

-j

this is why she's my best.

j: do you think i should give up hope?

l: even if i told you to give up, you'd still have hope.

j: ya.. so then what?

l: how about we have hope together.

:)

patience.

Me and my good friend patience.. We do not get along.

At all.

So after having dinner with good ol jdub last night.. He goes
"Maybe this is a lesson for you.. To be patient"

Since when do I ever take advice from jdub? But in this situation.. I think he's right. And I think all the signs just point to.. Confusion. And learning how to .. Love someone? Bahhh

Fml.

I couldn't sleep last night cause all I could do is think. And wait. And have hope. But then give up hope. *bighsighoffrustration*

Gotta wait it out. I guess :(

Rawr. Thanks jdub and esp. Khokhonuts. Seriously.. I should pay them for excellent friendship/ therapy. <3

- j

American Idol Season...god who the fuck cares

So, I'm sitting here watching my sister watch American Idol season who knows...and I'm just wondering why do people still watch this?!

I can understand watching the first couple seasons since they are actually scouting for talent. But, after more than 5 seasons is it? All the rejects from previous seasons try again and again hoping to eventually make it. And guess what? Eventually they probably will.

The funniest thing too! Some of the contestants who don't become the American Idol or even make the intitial try outs end up being more famous than those who win the show. God, how I loathe these TV shows. What's next? America's Top DJ? Since the trance since is becoming bigger than ever.

-irockursocks s

once apon a time i didn't give a damn..

adam lambert - whatdaya want from me.

:(

i wish..

once upon a time i wished for you.

i wished for everything that you are.

i even wished for the complexities of you, so that through my own selfish reasons i would know that if you overcame your complexities, you would let me, and only me in.

to be honest.. i still wish for that.

so i hope you'll hear my wish.. and realize that im not asking you to let me in fully..

i'm just asking you to let me be there with you.

- j (image via google: wish)

100

ONE HUNDRETH POST.


... about nothing.


actually about being the one hundreth :)

slow dancing in a burning room.

my emo song of the week.

- j

boys are stupider than grass.

(finally you blog sm you slow turtle of a human being.. ) yes.. i know that didn't make sense.. anyways

i am venting because i am the epidemy of awesomeness.

WHY do i say that? no.. i am not cocky.. i am just the most amazingest girlfriend you will ever meet. and i say that because it is my wall that is keeping me from crashing and burning because some stupid old man can't get over the fact that shit happens.. and when the shit hits the fence.. he has to go running away from the world itself .. LEAVING me nowhere but to stand on my own and figure out WHAT IS IT.. he really meant?

lesson learned? i guess i can't force someone to realize that happiness comes from the heart, and not from what your mind has told you to block yourself from.

love comes.. love goes. regrets are forever embedded into your brain.

regret ever letting me go. because im fucking worth it.

/endrant. :)

on a side note.. going to visit J2 this weekend. t.o here i come!

- j

insomnia is a wonderful thing

Having a completely retarded sleeping schedule has left me with a lot of time to think about things (this is cause everyone is asleep and I have nothing better to do lol).

I remember from highschool how someone mentioned something along the lines of...you're lucky to keep at least 5 of your close friends from highschool as friends when you're an adult.

So, I started thinking about the current friends I have that I deem to be "close friends" that were from my highschool. Hmm...1...2...3...oh dear looks like that person was right.

Let's think about this in terms of my close friends right now who were also my close friends in highschool (not friends who I knew in highschool and became good friends with). This leaves me with...only ONE.

Now that I've also graduated from university I can't help but wonder what life has in store. Will I still have my same group of friends? Or will life lead us all into different directions just as post highschool graduation has?

From my personal experience "friends" come and go. This may be my own personal experience since I've been called a social butterfly...but, from my experience, these "friends" are nothing more than mere social conveniences that you find to suit your current lifestyle. They're just an accessory you choose to have at time. As you change, so do your "friends" who you've become associated with.

As horrible as it sounds, you would have to admit there is some truth in what I wrote above as you reflect back on your life. I can think of plenty of people who I used to talk to frequently and now have been completely phased out of my life. These individuals didn't wrong me in anyway nor are they bad people. Our lives just simply went in different directions.

Had enough of the pessimism? lol Here's some optimism =b

There are your "friends" and your friends. These are the people you've met throughout your life and have stuck by you regardless of what may have happened. You are able to confide in your friends and know they'll have your best interest at heart. They may live in different cities now, pursued completely different goals than you, or may have kept in touch with you as much as before. Despite all this, the bond between you and them seems to never sever or diminish.

Sooooo, at the end of this incoherent rambling I'm doing at 5am I'd just like to say that I'm grateful to have the friends that's I have now and I'm sure no matter what we'll always remain friends. Wow..try reading that run-on sentence in one breath haha

-irockursocks s

P.S - I don't know what my ending tag thingy ma bobber is supposed to be anymore! Annnd "The future is beyond knowing, but the present is beyond belief" soo enjoy yourself in the present cause as the Kung Fu Panada old Turtle dude also says the present is gift that's why its called the present?

P.S2 - See! I blogged!

2010

three major misses

too many kisses

one shooting star wishes (I'm trying to rhyme..)

all in all

I'm sitting here with a happy heart. (:

here's to the blue moon & another amazing year ahead.

Happy New Year everyone!

And to L, do what makes you truely happy. <3