now that was random.

now i know. that as nice as a person may be, if they don't care or want anything from you, they will push you away.

i woke up wanting an end to this. i don't care for any substance that may come out of this. it was .. an experiment. so i'm sorry for what may have happened, i know more was expected from me. however, intuition took it's place and from the beginning, and i had no desire for any of it.

it may not be fair what i am putting myself through. but i found what makes me happy. friendship, warmth, laughter.. i can go off on that. i can be fine with it. and that's what is being reciprocated.

so no more randoms please. that's not how you test the waters, nor how you try and hide your feelings.