hope.

Why am I more hopeful for the past than I am for the future?

- j

healing.

Some nights I lay down and think...

I can do this.

Other nights I ask..

Why is this taking so long?

Everything surfaces in the end.

- j

canada vs. usa

unfortunately. we lost the game.. 5-3 for usa..

HOWEVER. we'll totally kick germany's ass. :) SO quarter final's are ONLY a game away.

on the bright side.. me and L drew a portrait of Patrick Chan,

canada's male skater who came in 5? .. ya.

seriously.. he looked way hotter in the mcdonald commercials... anywho study time!

- j

loss.

"To lose your parents is to lose your past, to lose your spouse is to lose your present, and to lose your child is to lose your future."

- found in my nursing notes.

- j

disappointment.

so.. today. being the awesome person i am.. i thought i would send a message to one of my old friends who i stopped talking to a while back because.. well he's a douche bag. Me and this friend.. let's call him E for enemy. :) so me and E have been friends since we were little youngin's playing outside living across the street from each other. We lost touch a bunch of times.. but as we got older we became friends again.. even dated for a bit. After we broke up which was many years ago, we were sort of still friends..but not really. Every time E had a new gf, he would ditch our friendship in favour of love. Now don't get me wrong, i love LOVE. i would do a lot of things for love.. but when i make mistakes regarding friendships, i always try and make it right and never commit a fault a second time. That being said, the second time around he decided to choose femm over friend, i decided to stop talking to him and give him the cold shoulder. I've been friends with this person for a very long time, and at one point we were super tight... you would think that after all these years E would have been .. the littlest bit enthusiastic that i decided to talk to him again? nope. nope. not at all. well from the reply all i got was a "good. and you?" .. ya. im sorry. if you're really friends with someone.. you go. HEY I HAVEN'T TALKED TO YOU IN SO LONG. IM SUCH A DOUCHE BAG...instead i pretty much got BUT SINCE I REALLY AM A DOUCHE BAG. I AM NOT GOING TO APPRECIATE YOUR FRIENDSHIP.

i guess i just wanted to see if he changed and to see if i could continue just being nice to him instead of having to hate on him. i don't hate. i'm just disappointed.

another one bites the dust.

*i'm obviously over exaggerating .. but still. lol

- j

sas'quatchi!

i did it! i found him! and he was one sale too!!! :)

although.. i am still on the hunt for a hUGE squatchi!!!

he is by far the cutest of the four vancouver 2010 winter olympic mascots.

he's SOOOOOOO CUTE!!!!!

he even has the red canada gloves!

CANADA! CANADA! CANADA!

- j

today...

i am a grumpy old fart.

- j