all apples go to apple heaven

"the apple blossom exists to create fruit; when that comes, the petal falls" -kabir

i love you, wait for me in heaven kay?

greys anatomy

Go watch todays episode.


There is only one person who will make you feel.
You only get one chance.

One.

youthful insight.

thanks for the cheer up aks. haha this is gold... kid's are very smart. maybe i'll decide to have one after all..

HOW DO YOU DECIDE WHO TO MARRY? (written by kids)

You got to find somebody who likes the same stuff. Like, if you like sports, she should like it that you like sports, and she should keep the chips and dip coming. Alan, age 10

WHAT IS THE RIGHT AGE TO GET MARRIED?

Twenty-three is the best age because you know the person FOREVER by then. Camille, age 10

No age is good to get married at. You got to be a fool to get married. Freddie, age 6 (very wise for his age)

HOW CAN A STRANGER TELL IF TWO PEOPLE ARE MARRIED?

You might have to guess, based on whether they seem to be yelling at the same kids. Derrick, age 8

WHAT DO YOU THINK YOUR MUM AND DAD HAVE IN COMMON?

Both don’t want any more kids. Lori, age 8

WHAT DO MOST PEOPLE DO ON A DATE?

Dates are for having fun, and people should use them to get to know each other. Even boys have something to say if you listen long enough. Lynnette, age 8 (isn’t she a treasure)

On the first date, they just tell each other lies and that usually gets them interested enough to go for a second date. Martin, age 10 (Who said boys do not have brains)

WHAT WOULD YOU DO ON A FIRST DATE THAT WAS TURNING SOUR?

I’d run home and play dead. The next day I would call all the newspapers and make sure they wrote about me in all the dead columns. Craig, age 9

WHEN IS IT OKAY TO KISS SOMEONE?

When they’re rich. Pam, age 7 (I could not have said it better myself)

The law says you have to be eighteen, so I wouldn’t want to mess with that. Curt, age 7 (Good Point)

The rule goes like this: If you kiss someone, then you should marry them and have kids with them. It’s the right thing to do. Howard, age 8 (Who made the rule)

IS IT BETTER TO BE SINGLE OR MARRIED?

I don’t know which is better, but I’ll tell you one thing. I’m never going to have sex with my wife. I don’t want to be all grossed out. Theodore, age 8 (Too much detail for his age)

It’s better for girls to be single but not for boys. Boys need someone to clean up after them. Anita, age 9 (bless you child)

HOW WOULD THE WORLD BE DIFFERENT IF PEOPLE DIDN’T GET MARRIED?

There sure would be a lot of kids to explain, wouldn’t there? Kelvin, age 8

And the #1 Favourite is……..

HOW WOULD YOU MAKE A MARRIAGE WORK?

Tell your wife that she looks pretty, even if she looks like a truck. Ricky, age 10 (The boy already understands)

here's the link to cruftbucket where this article is taken from.

- j

release the bubbles.

watch them float away.

- j

when you think things are finally over..

they aren't.

burning out.

i am burning out.

- j (image via weheartit)

tendencies.

to get pulled unknowingly into situations involving other peoples emotions.

do i try to make things better? or .. do i just leave it as is

situations tend to correlate at the most convenient times, don't they.

i shouldn't be held responsible for people's inability to pick up after themselves.

i'm not mad. i could be disappointed, but i wont.

i'll just keep on going. whatever happens next, will happen.

- j

someone's always looking out.

don't fall in love when you're lonely,

fall in love when you're ready.

& not everyone knows this :)

thanks Aks.

- j

dissect it like a mothafucka.

i've been so busy lately with school.. that when the weekend comes upon me, funny things happen.

in a nutshell: i realized i have feelings for a friend, and i tried to justify the fact that he's an asshole but really, he really is an asshole so that's why i keep on going hot and cold on him and being blunt and rude to him because, really, no one deserves to have their wall broken by some guy that needs to prove his ability to one up everyone else. as long as you're a dick to me, i'll be a bitch to you. when you wanna place nice, i'll play nice. but i'm not going to mope over you. so, unlucky you, my feelings are crawling back into the hole lol. i also found out that i was okay and over my ex, and when i tried to be friends with him, he went all weird on me. am i one hundred percent okay with you moving on? even if i wasn't, knowing that you can't even be honest with me shows me that you're not worth me crying over. so yes. i am okay. why do you have to go and prove something to me anyways?

that being said, it's not that i don't care anymore, it's that i'm not going to let 'your' problems with yourself affect me. figure yourself out. then let me know if you want to have any sort of relationship. i have my flaws, but what i do know, is that i don't have to prove myself time and time again to those around me. the only person that really cares is myself.

me and L dissected the events of today like a motherfucker.

- j

i left my heart for you to take.

but all you did was walk all over it...

- j

healing.

Some nights I lay down and think...

I can do this.

Other nights I ask..

Why is this taking so long?

Everything surfaces in the end.

- j

mutual friendship.

soo j2 finally wanted to post something.. but the blogger website wouldn't load on his computer for some reason.. so i told him i would post our msn conversation :)

* the black is j & the blue is J2

mm i read a story

a guy met this girl and cause of one thing he broke up with her

he searched his whole life looking for that perfect someone

in the end he settled for less then what he could've had if it was that first girl

that stories always on my mind now

hahah wish you showed c that story

just cause it happened to that one guy

you settle what you let yourself settle for. if you have expectations.. you will never find anyone that meets them

true and not true

alot of people settle for less

some people settle for a bit better

some settle or what they think is good

and some do search hoping to find that someone

its possible to find someone perfect but chances are slim

thats why a and s were almost perfect for me

a knew how to treat a man and obeyed

s was willing to yell at me if she knew it was right

keep me in line

there are lots of girls like that

u just haven't met the one yet

for sure you can find a girl.. u just have to wait a little

yea

me gonna wait longer

and not date until

i unno

i feel like it

that's why im not bawling over c anymore.. im keeping faith ill meet someone

yea me gonna try that

im talking to m right now

she keeps telling me how she cares

but i know it won't be the same

all ex's say they care

c said he still cares

i know she means it

but its in a different way

i know c means it too. but im not giving him the chance to truely be my friend until im over it

cause if im not over it.. im just gonna keep going back asking him for more

yea

thats what im saying too

gj buddy

we think alike

:) cavepeople forlifeeeee

yupyup

no more tears.

look at those bedroom eyes.

om nom nom nom nom nom. NOM NOM NOM NOM.

robert pattinson & his details cover.

edward cullen,

you are one person who would never make me cry :)

- j (image via details)

a big fat ocean of love

Out there.. Is a little fishie that is swimming its way towards me. There is someone .. That will meet my expectations.. And commit to me with everything he is. He surpasses everything imaginable.. And most of all.. His love for me will be endearing and genuine.
So as much as I'm trying to fight the waves.. Ill slowly float along as the content little fishie I am.. until serendipity happens.

- j

another one of those first impression topics.

"Some girls you see, the first thing that comes to mind is wow she'd make such an amazing girlfriend. Others you look at, you're just like "i'd soo eff her" " - sm

"For some guys after first impression of meeting a girl they put then into either friend category or possible girlfriend one. once that opinion is made, it's hard to change." -sm

okay. so me and sm are bored out of our minds and he likes to talk about the most random things. that's probably why we like to sit on the roof of parking lots and talk till the wee hours in the morning right? (damn you snow!) anyways. so back to the topic of first impressions. In sm's point of view.. its one or the other.. and from that point on, it rarely changes. (so guys point of view)

girls point of view, when I see a guy my first thought is, is he good looking or not. (so physical assessment..and yes, i am shallow to a certain extent. bite me.) whats his personality like. how is he dressed. if he gets those checked, then hes on the potential bf material. if he doesn't have all three checked, hes on the friends list. if he makes the first cut, he has to jump through the finances, dbag level.. and well. ya. everything else assessment. SO I guess.. unless they fit the first three.. they're in the friends zone.

sometimes however.. people grow on you. such as.. looks don't matter so much... esp when you find out their taste in music is EXACT as yours and they're the most easiest person to talk to. or something along those lines. I find that when the guy is in the friend's zone, he's much easier to talk to too. so that gives him 1up to other guys..cause the girl has already let her guard down. and he can woo her with what a cool guy he really is. i find that i've gone back on the whole friends thing for juuust a couple of minutes and said to myself.. hey.. he's acually..bf.. materi..a.... l? mmhmm.

but peoples opinions change all the time right? just gotta find the right mix of 'guy i'd love to lust' and 'guy that would make the perfect bf'. i think.. i hope this all made sense lol.

unfortunately though, personality doesn't always win. for guys.. i assume, if shes got the looks and no personality, shes a piece of meat. SO therefore.. sm.. i am going to find you a wife. so that you can stop chewing the pieces of yuck you've managed to attract. ya? good.

- j

true story.

here's a little story about a cute little couple that i know.

How they found each other, I do not know.. But what I know, is that they found each other. They met a very long time ago. However they met, it was a blind meeting. Blind. They fell in love blinded.. With no sense of sight. But they fell in love with their other senses. They wrote letters. Letters of joy, letters of sadness... Letters of love. They met, they married. They travelled. One daughter. A dog. He loved her. He loves her. She loves him. He yells. She cries. He smiles. They smile. He calls her spoiled. She loves him. He will do anything for her. He watches football. She gardens. They have an adventure. They live. They grow old. They settle. He forgets. She loses weight. Their hairs turn. He is in denial. She has pain. He gets lost. She is confused. But he loves her. She loves him. Their daughter visits. She is happy. He is happy. Their daughter leaves. She complains. He is confused. She cannot get up. He says she is okay. She sits. All day. She sits. He loses things. Not her though. He will not lose her. She goes to the hospital. Finally. He goes with her. She is bleeding. He will not leave her. He fights. To be together. They let him stay. Stay with her. Because he loves her. And she loves him. He wrote a book. About their love. He won't lose her. He won't. She won't lose him. She won't. They're moving. To a safer place. .. But they stay together. Because they only have each other.

~ this isn't the notebook.. It's real life. Real love.

UPDATE: .. she is dying.. ):

- j

in the words of my homeslice, J2

"prince charming isn't coming cause he's in toronto, taken."

- j

the vampire diaries

"dear diary,

I met a boy. We talked. It was epic. Then... reality set in."

"dear diary,

I'm scared. I'm scared that if I let myself be happy just for one second, the world will come crashing down on me."

"dear diary,

love bites."

- j

(the quotes might be a little off but..who's really listening. & images via google: old diary)

affection.

You know what's the worst? When you order an egg and bacon mcmuffin when really you wanted to order an egg and sausage mcmuffin. Epic faaaaaaiiil.

I know a lot of people who have mainly physical relationships. Hmm. I guess that's what you're exposed to when you grow up hey? Its surprising to me how many people can do the whole no strings attached thing, cause honestly there are always strings. ALWAYS. They're just hidden.

Even though physical relationships do bring 'sexy times!!!!!', its nice just to have someone there.. Like to cuddle with. Yaaaay for cuddling. Affection.. There we go. It is affection I think that's harder to go without than 'sexy timesss!!!!' You know babies when they're first born crave affection? That bond that they are exposed to by touching and cuddling affects their psychosocial development. Mmhmm! So the more they are exposed = the healthier their development.

But as I was saying, we've just been so exposed to the other types of relationships that we assume and judge things based on the most scandalous situations we can think of. But hey.. Makes for great gossip right?

Hmm. I guess I just wanted to say that it is possible to have a relationship with someone that doesn't involve any physicalities (lol yaa is that a real word?). Annd its just. Affection. Its really nice to have. Like holding hands and hugging. (Although there is perception that holding hands is a sign of insecurity.. Thoughts?!) Affection is. Really. nice. And .. Ya. lol Mmmmm.. It's one of those things that you never want to end.

- j

flow.

"I don't like to do things I don't understand"

Well. Is everything we do something we understand? Nothing is for certain, we only think the way we do because our society paves the way we think...

A friend of mine told me that he didn't like relationships because they didn't make sense to him ... He said he doesn't like doing things he doesn't understand and relationships require too much effort to understand... Or are just not something that's set in stone.

That.. Is bull. Way to put a wall up. That's the point, to not understand. Its to feel.. To know that even though things around you don't make sense, you still are willing to try... And you want to learn and understand each other.

Can't go with the flow if the flow isn't moving!

Wow this was random. Every time my friend and I have lunch we always go back to this topic..

I guess j'dub is gonna be alone foreverr

- j

L's contribution

Happily ever after

So j asked me to contribute to her blog. Now i’m definitely not one to be very vocal about my feelings so i had no idea what to write. But since this blog seems to be mostly talking about love and relationships i guess i shall stick with this topic.
As j has mentioned, i attended a wedding last month. Actually i was a bridesmaid so i got to be behind the scenes, which means i got to experience all the work and drama that goes into the perfect day. I’ve attended many weddings before and although this is the first where i’m a bridesmaid, i have yet to experience one where so many things went wrong before. This couple had so much to deal with, from family drama to the bakery making the wrong cake! I tried my best to help them in any way i can cause they are the last two people in the world to have their day ruined. At the end of it all, their wedding day was nothing short of perfect. And it was then i realized something.

As much as the people around them scrambled to right all the wrongs, it really didn’t matter. I’ve seen this couple go through so much in the years they’ve been together and all they really wanted was to be married...to show all their friends and family how strong their love was for each other....how committed they were to each other...to show that no matter what the world has thrown at them, they’ve survived through it all. Cause there would be no point for them to exist without the other. I have never felt so happy for a couple to be married and they’ve taught me what true love really is. Their day was perfect, not because the cake was right, the weather was perfect, or the hall looked perfect. None of those really mattered...it was perfect cause they were so happy to begin the rest of their lives with each other.

8 months ago, my 4 year relationship ended. We didn’t end on bad terms and i have tons of respect for him. He knows that at the end of the day i am here for him. A couple months ago i would consider getting back together but after this wedding i know i can’t. I have finally seen what true love really looks and feels like. I don’t think i deserve the best out there...i know i’m not the best catch myself. But the love i shared with my ex was nothing close to what this couple has. The worst part is that i know we could never have that in the future either. And i think everyone deserves to experience that. But i’m in no rush...my time will come. And so the journey begins again...except this time i know what my happily ever after looks like.

- L